Shylalight 4 your happiness

Maddi started nursery school today.  I took her last week for her introductory day and she loved it, couldnt wait to go back and start 'proper big school'.  I took last monday off work to take her but today was her official first day, the uniform on etc.  I decided not to take the day off and let her day nursery teachers take her but all day I have been feeling so guilty about it.  Got home tonight and she is fullof stories, really isnt bothered that I missed it, why would she be I guess.  How do working parents strike that balance between work and child?  Where do we draw the line?

I have found that Maddi seems to respond to whatever I present to her as long as I am happy with the decision.  if I am doubtful she is nervous, If I am nervous she is scared and if I feel guilty, she uses it to her best advantage for anything she can get!! Children have the ability to respond immediately to what we feed them so I have chosen to feed love and confidence and it seems to be paying off.  Still.....I do wonder what I miss by being a working Mum?

I feel the same being a working Mum that I am missing out on some real precious times which will never be able to have again. I just spend as much time with him as I can when I do have his company. The washing can wait or he gives me a hand in his own little way. We spend far too much time feeling guilty about things we are unable to change. If myself and my husband could afford it we would both work part time and spend more time with each other and our son. Unfortunately that is not the way things are and we do what we have to to get by. I am happy knowing that Charley is in a nursery where he feels happy, and he runs off most mornings giving me a wave through the window then off to play with his friends. Maybe things will change when we get some childcare paid for when he turns 3, I might be able to drop some hours at work. Until then, I will make the most of him while I have him xxx